No more babies...

While having four kids has been such a challenge especially since my oldest is 6 and my youngest is now 1; lets just say I cry some times. Nonetheless, it has been a battle in my heart that longs for another baby (thank the lord my tubes are tied!). It all started at my last and final post c-section appointment, I knew that I would never experience that joy of closeness with my ObGyn again. Of course the worst moment was when I stopped breast feeding, boy was that the worse couple months of my life. I cried a lot and randomly, such as right before having to give a presentation to my class. Luckily for me school psychology is predominantly female and I had a lot of understanding people surrounding me. I am now feeling better, but once my little squeaker turned 1 it was a little sad knowing that that was it for first birthdays until one of my four make me a grandmother in 20 to 30 years from now (yes I am already counting down!). For now I just pursue my dreams and help my husband and children pursue theirs as well. It has been a journey with four, but a journey that I would do over and over again. I am going to try posting more because as you know with four kids their is always something to write about.